Sunday, May 27, 2012

Good bye's

Good bye's are not easy.  I have just spent the entire last 48 hours saying good bye and for most of you that know me - you know what that looks like and how difficult that is for me.  I am emotionally exhausted and drained.  My heart is burdened and heavy knowing that I may never see these people that God has given me relationships with for this season ever again.  My eyes feel completely dried up now.  My head hurts from all of the tears and my body is worn out from lack of sleep.

However, I rejoice in the sweet reality that I am leaving my loved ones here only to return to my loved ones back home.  So yes, it is bittersweet.  But God is good and I must remember that He loves these people far more than I ever could.  He will take care of them.

It is 4:17 AM AM and I am preparing to fly to South Africa in a couple of short hours.  I will spend the next 4 days there in Debrief.  I will then be flying home to America on a not-so-short flight :)

Oh the journey God has brought me on in my time here!  The struggles, the difficulties, the victories, the pains, the discomforts, the triumphs, the joys, the love, and the sanctification.  It has certainly been a journey!  But for now I say good bye to Dar es Salaam.  Even though I am leaving I will never forget and I will always cherish my time that God has given me here.  He alone is good!!

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!"    
Psalm 34:8

I will try to update one more time prior to flying out of South Africa to the U.S.!  Love to all of you!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

One constant


As I sat down this morning to spend time in God’s Word, it hit me.  I only have two days left in Dar es Salaam.  Two short days.  Forty-eight hours (give or take a few).  That’s it.  That is all I have left in this place that God has called me to spend the last 5 months of my life in.  What a surreal feeling.  What a bittersweet reality.

So often in my time here I have I longed to be back at home with the luxuries of my country that I have so clearly taken for granted.  So often I have craved air conditioner, clean water, consistent electricity, Internet, and water, clean produce that I don’t have to fear becoming ill after consuming, and the thought of not having to take medication every day to lessen the odds of contracting malaria from the mosquitoes that constantly feast upon my body. 

So often I have longed to be able to walk out my front door and jump in my car to go to the grocery store and buy whatever my stomach desires, or pick up my phone and call a friend to share what God is doing in and through me, or cuddle up next to Rob while watching a movie, or seek wise counsel from a mentor when I am having a tough day and could use some guidance.

All of these things I have taken for granted and all of these things I have longed for at some point in my time here in Africa.  But then I think about what I will miss when I return home and I am sweetly reminded of the luxuries that I have had here and hope to never take for granted… 

Walking out my apartment door to a chorus of children chanting “Teacher Webber” (teecha wayba) and running full-speed at me

constant smiles and laughter

endless hugs and kisses and nakupenda’s (I love you’s)

walking down the dirt road that leads to our apartment and being greeted with a smiling “Mambo” by every African that passes

women walking down the streets with baskets full of produce on their heads while their babies are strapped on their backs with a colorful kanga

Friday night Bible study with the girls filled with worship, prayer, teaching, and fellowship

one on one meetings with the girls that I walk away from being so encouraged and refreshed by their desire to know Christ in a deeper and more intimate way

week day mornings spent at the primary school soaking wet in sweat as I jump around singing Father Abraham with children and teaching them about Jesus

the splendor and glory of God’s creation all around me from the magnificent Indian Ocean to the variety of different people groups represented here

Such are the joys of my daily life in Tanzania.  Everyday is different, every day is exciting but through it all there is one constant – God.  His grace, His love, and His mercy are so evident in every minute of every day here. The simplicity of this place and the lack of so many luxuries I am accustomed to back home have driven me to depend on God in a different way that I have ever before.  Dependence on Him in my every struggle and my every victory.  Not on Rob, not on my family or friends, not on my mentors, not on my comforts, but on God.  This is where John 15 has come alive and incredibly real for me...

Jesus said, “I am the vine; you are the branches.
Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit,
for apart from me you can do nothing.”
John 15:5

He says, “abide in ME”… not religion, not church, not friends, family, or your job or money.  But ME.  Oh the simple, straightforward instruction He has given us here.  But oh the difficulty we find in it when we are so consumed with the comforts, pleasures, and stuff of this world that we are unable to see the only way that we are able to do anything of any eternal value or worth.  So this is where I rest.  Abiding in Christ.  Abiding in Him in Africa as I dread and fear saying goodbye to the people that have become so dear to me.  And abiding in Him as I return home to embark on the next journey He has for me.  No matter where God has me or takes me, this I know, I must abide in Him.

 Birthday dinner with the girls

 Bible Study

 Sweet Delphine and Kamphat

On the ferry heading to South Beach

 Miriam and I being silly at my birthday dinner celebration

 South Beach with the girls

 Nate, teaching our Bible Study on relationships from a godly man's perspective

 Meeting Asha's one week old baby brother for the first time

 Asha enjoying some "pipi" (sweets) that I brought her while having her hair braided

 Wish I could bring this girl home with me!

Sweet neighbor tending to her cows

 Mama carrying her baby on her back

 Beautifully colored kangas

 Another visit to Asha's home

Ochu and all of my babies waiting for me :)

Some of the children I have been so blessed to teach and love on

skipping off to "dining" for some morning porridge 

Vero refusing to let go of me while I take pictures :)

Nancy and me

My sweet Usraf waiting on her porridge to cool 

Junior

 Boys will be boys... no matter what continent they live on :)

 Teacher Anna & Teacher Nancy dressing me up in my new African "gear"

 My new kangas and sandals from Anna & Nancy

 My Tanzanian sisters in Christ - GOD IS GOOD!!

Anna in the bajaji with her new fan and home supplies that I gave her

Happy feet 

As I have begun to pack and prepare to return to the U.S. I have been able to reflect on my time here and the incredible and constant encouragement I have received from friends and family back home.  I am absolutely humbled by all of your prayers, emails, letters, and uplifting facebook messages that you have sent.  You have shared with me in carrying my burdens and shared with me in celebrating victories in my time here.  Even when I have not been able to respond or thank you for weeks at time or even ever, you have still been faithful to encourage and pray for me.  This has been a beautiful picture of the body of Christ in action for me.  Thank you.  Thank you for your financial and prayerful support to help me take the gospel to and make disciples of Christ in Tanzania.  God has been so faithful and merciful to hear our prayers and has blessed me abundantly along the way.  I pray that you too are blessed in knowing that you have played a significant role in making all of this happen!  

Nakupenda, Mungo akubarike!  (I love you and God bless you)

Saturday, May 12, 2012

"Great is thy power!"



                            "The devil never reckons a man to be lost so long as he has a good mother alive.
                                                            O woman, great is thy power!"                     
                                                                      -  Charles Spurgeon

Being a mother is not always easy.  There is no profession in the world that requires more work and greater sacrifice than motherhood on a day-by-day basis.  This love requires deep demands.  Deep demands to care for a child spiritually, physically, and emotionally.  Here’s the picture that Titus 2 gives us in regards to motherhood:  no woman is capable of the kind of love described in this passage, apart from the gospel and the grace of God in them.  It is the grace of God in them that enables them to be the mother that God has designed them to be.  It is ALL based on grace.  It requires deep demands that send them to God saying, “God I need your grace to do this!” 

Apart from God’s grace my mother, Becky Woodruff, could not have raised me the way that she did.  She gladly and joyfully sacrificed everything in order to be the mother to my siblings and me that God called her to be.  There is not one time in my life that I can recall my mother not being there for me.  She has encouraged me, loved me, disciplined me, supported me and mothered me through every single up and down and ebb and flow in my life.  And she has done it with such GRACE. 

So today, I celebrate my mother and the grace that God has so clearly lavished upon her to be my mother.  I celebrate the gift of motherhood and I thank her for the constant and continual sacrifices that she has made for me.  I praise God for her constant trust in Him to provide her with the grace to mother me in the way that He designed her to.  And most importantly, I thank her for being so diligent to pass the gospel on to my siblings and me. 




As I finish up my time in Africa, I can only pray that God will bestow the same grace that He has given my mother, to the mothers around me here.  These women have a responsibility that is greater than just caring for their children physically and emotionally.  But they have a responsibility as mothers, to pass the gospel on to the next generation in their children.   If my mother had not been so intentional and obedient to pass that good news on to me I would not be here today.  And I more than likely would not know and trust in Jesus as my Lord and Savior.   So please join with me today in praising God for all of our mothers and then join with me in asking God to give grace to the mothers in Africa and around the world that do not know Him and trust in Him as their Lord and Savior, to pass the gospel on to their children and grandchildren.  We as Christ followers desire to see the gospel passed on by mothers to the next generation!  











Happy Mother's Day Mom!  I love you and am more grateful to you than you will ever know.  And to all of the mothers out there... today, we celebrate you and your efforts, your commitments, your sacrifices and your obedience to obey God's design and purpose for you as mothers!  Thank you.

Just a few "shout-outs".... Happy Mother's Day to my two amazing Grandmothers, my sister Caroline, my cousin Caca, my future mother-in-law Sandy, my friends and mentors Elizabeth and Kari, and all of my mother's friends (you know who you are) who have not only raised your own children but have also played such a positive role in my life as you have loved me, encouraged me and supported me over the years.  May God pour out His blessings upon you for your obedience to Him!  Thank you for all that you have been and are to me.  I love you.     

Sunday, April 29, 2012

What HE wants you to do

It is hard to believe that it has been over a month and a half since I last posted an update.  I am truly sorry… life here in Tanzania has been very busy.  A good busy.  A busy that I praise God for because busy here means that God has granted many opportunities to further His Kingdom!  I feel like I blinked and the month of April was gone!  So much has happened and is happening since my last update but I will try to be as thorough as possible without making this too excruciatingly long to read.

At the end of March we had the opportunity to travel to Zanzibar, an island off of the coast of Dar, for about a 5-day break.  This was very much needed and very much appreciated.  Since I had not been outside of Dar since my arrival in January (the others went to Uganda and Morogoro, TZ back in February), I was itching to have a break, do some exploring, and just relax.  This time away encompassed all of those desires!  We stayed in the historically famous, Stone Town and were able to do some exploring and tours, take a boat to a smaller island to snorkel, enjoy all of the foods and shopping that the island offers, and even have a little down time to be refreshed and restored by the Lord.  I really loved every second we had in Zanzibar.  There is such a middle-eastern influence there because of being previously controlled by Oman and because of the Arab slaved trade that took place there.  But there is also a mysterious charm about the island that I found to be very intriguing.  The people were different from the people in Dar… there was definitely an “island mentality” about them.  I have never heard “hakunna matata” (Swahili for “no worries” or “no problem”) so much since I last watched the Lion King.  That seemed to be everyone’s favorite phrase there.  I am very grateful for the time I was able to spend in Zanzibar for so many reasons but ashamedly I must admit that one of my favorite things about my time there was staying in a nice hotel that had air conditioner and consistent power and water. J   After 4 nights and 5 days there I was spoiled! 

 Jamie and me on the beach at sunset
 the famous Zanzibar doors
 Fordani's --outdoor local market that offers fresh and local Zanzibarian food
 Slave trade memorial 
 Chumbe Island
 Wishing I had Rob with me here :)
Baby Collin- my friend that I visited often during my time in Zanzibar
 Chumbe Island
Snorkeling in the coral reefs on Chumbe Island

At the end of March, two women that I have been pouring into trusted in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior!  This was obviously HUGE!  This was what I was brought here for!  To share the gospel and make disciples of the people God so graciously gives me relationships with here.  In that moment with those two women sitting on my couch in my apartment, every frustration, discouragement, annoyance, and struggle I have experienced here went out the window, and I was able to celebrate the adoption of two daughters into the family of God.  Tears of joy were streaming down my face so heavily that one of the women even asked, “why are you upset?”  I explained to her that I now do not have to dread saying goodbye to them in a couple of months but rather, I get to anticipate spending eternity with them in Heaven praising our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!  What an unexplainable feeling!  I am still so honored and humbled by the reality that God has allowed me to be a part of what He is doing in these women’s hearts but also in the hearts of many more people He has given me relationships with here.  What a privilege that I pray I will never take for granted! 

Mwajuma and Anna

The Saturday before Easter Sunday, we had the opportunity to visit Muhimbili Children’s Hospital in Dar.  We planned a little Easter party for the children and invited some of the University students that we minister to and share life with here, to come along with us.  This was hands down one of my favorite days I have had in Dar!  We took print outs of “He has risen” Jesus coloring sheets, crayons, snacks, juice, books and other goodies with us to celebrate our risen Savior’s life.   A couple of guitars were even brought and we had a time of singing, clapping and praising Jesus together!  To see the smiles on these children’s faces despite their cancerous conditions was one of the most touching moments that I know I will cherish and remember forever.  For those short hours, they were able to forget that they had tubes that fed through their noses that allowed them to actually “eat”, or a missing eye or limb, or had bandages that covered half of their face due to infection, or the reality that they may not live to celebrate another Easter….yet there was joy.  There was a deep joy that affected each one of us there in a way that we needed to be affected.  This was one of my more sobering times in Dar.  It reminded me of the passage in John 9 when Jesus healed a man that was born blind.

“As He passed by, He saw a blind man from birth.
And His disciples asked Him,
‘Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?’
Jesus answered, ‘It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that
the works of God might be displayed in him.” 
John 9:1-3

That last statement explains it all.  As we were on our way home, Miriam (a good friend that God has given me here) asked me, “why would God allow those children to suffer in that way?”  It was so good to be able to confidently answer her with Jesus’ own words.  “So that the works of God might be displayed in them.”  You see, at any point God could so easily heal these children but for now He has chosen not to.  In His perfection, He has chosen to instead display His glory through them.  And boy did he do that for us on that Saturday!   

Sweet girl

 So proud of their Jesus worksheet they colored


 Children showing me the goodies we brought them
 Carol teaching some of the children
 LOVING their dolls Lindsey brought them
 Sweet baby being bathed by his Mama
Ah :)

Celebrating Easter here in Tanzania was such a sweet gift!  Not only is it my favorite holiday but I was able to celebrate our Savior’s life and resurrection with the people that God had specifically called me to and in the place that God has specifically brought me to.  Nate “brought the Word” at church that morning and then we had a huge Easter lunch/dinner celebration with all of the University students that we have built relationships with here.  We grilled out hamburgers and hotdogs and enjoyed potato salad, chips, baked beans, brownies and even a cookie cake that Jamie (my good friend and Journey-girl here) whipped up for us.  This too was one of my favorite times in Dar!  Ochu (my bajaji driver) and his precious wife and son even came!  We had such a sweet sweet time of enjoying food, fellowship, and laughter for hours together.  This Easter Sunday was so special to me… if I wasn’t going to be married to the love of my life and getting to share next Easter with him as husband and wife, I’d say that this year would be hard to top!

 Ochu, his wife and precious son on Easter Sunday at the Easter celebration
 Easter Sunday celebration
 Carol, Khamphat, Joyce and Keziah
 Delphine, Lydia and Sophie
Zoe and Lukkman

Not only have things been very busy here the past couple of months but God has also been teaching me so much about myself and my total depravity and Himself and His unconditional love.  Every day that He gives me here He teaches me more about my desperation to depend on Him for EVERYTHING.  Not surprisingly, this too I have had to learn the hard way at times and am continuing to learn daily.  But praise God that He is a gracious and merciful God, “slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love”  (Numbers 14:18).  As most of you know, after spending a month here I would have told you that I was called here to minister to the children and female teachers of the primary school that the Lord opened the doors to so early on.  This no doubt has been and is part of my ministry here but the past month or so God has revealed to me how He would have me spend the rest of my time here.  This came as a big surprise because I thought I had it all figured out.  Something my very wise supervisor, Andy, asked me during his visit to Dar back in March was, “Webber, I know you know what you want to be doing here but have you ever asked God what HE wants you to do?”  This became a question that I have wrestled with ever since he left two months ago.  The Holy Spirit really began to speak to me through Andy’s words and direct my steps in where HE would have me invest in for my remaining time here.  This is where all of the University female students come in. 

Upon arriving to Dar back in January, I immediately jumped into an all-girls Bible Study that was led by the University girls themselves.  Jamie had been a part of it for a while and graciously invited me to join in.  At first I thought this would just be a once a week commitment but I would spend the majority of my time with the children and teachers.  God eventually corrected me and as I asked Him where He would have me serve in my last couple of months here, He so clearly showed me.  He was calling me to invest in these 10+ University girls.  To make disciples of them and to “teach them to observe all that God has commanded” (Matthew 28:20).   All of these girls are saved and have had some sort of background in Christianity.  The majority of them are from Uganda but are here in Dar for school and will most likely return to Uganda after graduating.  Because they were believers and they loved Jesus and were meeting to study His Word, I was under the impression that they didn’t need me and I should invest elsewhere.  What a false perception!  I think so often because we have come to Africa to be missionaries (or other parts of the world that have not necessarily been reached well with the gospel), we think that we should only seek out people that have never heard of Jesus.  This is where I feel like we have gone wrong.  Again, if we read the entire “Great Commission” and really obey it then we will be seeking to minister to and disciple EVERYONE that God decides to put in our path… saved or unsaved.  This is not just a tell people about Jesus and then your job is done there.  There is SO MUCH more to the rest of that command that Jesus gave us in Matthew.  We are to “teach them to observe all that He has commanded.”  So that is where I am now and that is what I have been striving to do and will continue to do until I leave in 4 weeks.  These girls love Jesus and want to obey Jesus but they have not necessarily been taught how to do that.  They are in dire need of a mentor or a teacher.  Someone to pour into and disciple them in the ways of God.  These girls are all intelligent, and fluent in English, and leaders on their campus and in their community.  God was so gracious to give me these girls to disciple and share life with.  They have so much potential to impact their campus, communities here, and even impact their villages back in Uganda when they return home for holidays and after graduation.  Here I was trying to do it all on my own all the while, God was pointing me to these girls and saying, “Here they are!  I have brought them to you!  Now teach them!  Invest in them!”  Oh, how we so often think we have it all figured out and we fail to even ask God what we should do or where we should be! 

            So the past month or so I have really been trying to connect with these girls on a deeper level, love them and teach them how to walk as disciples of Christ and then how to make disciples.  Right now we are in the middle of a relationship series in our Bible Study.  I was asked to teach on relationships with the opposite sex a couple of weeks ago.  It was not until then and meeting with these girls one on one did I see their desperate need and eagerness to be really taught what God calls us to as women in Christ.  This week I will be teaching on Biblical Womanhood.  As you all know, our world and culture has completely perverted this and we have left God and His Word.  If you think about it, please pray for my preparation, what I share with them, and for their hearts to be receptive to what God has to teach them through me.  There is so much to discuss on this subject and God has given me such a passion to share what He calls us to be as women – I just pray I will be a good steward of His Word as I teach from it.  Below are some pictures of some of the girls – most from a poetry recital that they put on.  Please lift them up as a group and individually (Khamphat, Carol, Keziah, Joy, Delphine, Lydia, Heaven, Angela, Brenda, Miriam, Jane).

 Carol and me at the Children's Hospital
 Carol and me at the Poetry Recital
 Cute girls getting ready to recite :)
 Khamphat -- the M.C.
 Keziah
Delphine
 Brenda
Joy 
Celebratory dinner for Miriam's Birthday

Thank you all for your continued encouragement, support and your commitment to pray for me and my time here.  God has been so faithful and I know He will continue to be as we strive to glorify Him by making disciples of all nations!  I love you and thank God for you.